New Beginning

After hearing many requests to continue this blog (from one person), I have decided to continue posting. I don't really remember what happened that made me stop; it was a long time ago... Nevertheless, I have a lot of exciting things to talk about. First, I'll mention a little about what has happened since I last posted.
I feel a little uneasy going into much detail about it, since this is so public, but I have been through a lot of joy and hardship. My life was going great until I lost sight of what was really important. First, I put something good above my relationship with God. "Something good" is all I can say... After that, I lost that good thing. I traded it for something worth nothing. The next few months were a dark time for me. During that time I realized that I had no friends (that I talked to or saw regularly). I was effectively alone and I learned to accept that. I shoved my faith to the back and spent all of my time playing video games and watching anime.
Now that I think about it, I was reading Radical by David Platt during this. It was making an impact on my life, and I was trying to get closer to God, but I wasn't really committing myself to it. The pain and sorrow from my loss kept coming back. I can't really describe completely what I was going through, but in summary, I was living with Christ in the background; trying to follow him but not putting much effort into it.
I had a wakeup call. Literally, someone called me and told me what I was doing. I really respect this person, so hearing it from him was very meaningful for me. I took it seriously, but didn't put much thought into it until that night. What he said was almost haunting me. I got up at 1am and deleted all of my video games; 140Gb of them. It was the first step in my rehab, but my life was pretty empty after that. I got rid of the one thing that occupied my time. Consequently, I thought about what I had lost (the really good thing) a lot.
Next, something really painful happened to me. I found something else that was good. It was enough to help me forget what I lost, but it was just out of my reach. I started reading my Bible daily at this point. Once I finally got this new thing, it was slowly taken away from me. I think God gave it to me just to remind me that He is the only thing I can alway count on having. Now, when I look back on both of the good things I had, I am happy to have had them and miss having them but feel divine peace about losing them.
I have been praying and reading my Bible, and I just started "Crazy Love." More later.